So, we are trying to make a routine for ourselves. It is really hard. We go to bed at like 11 p.m. and wake up at like noon, and we will end up only having slept for 7 and a half hours. Feedings in the middle of the night take a lot of time. She has been having a lot of gas pains, so we have to stay up with her while she is having them.
I am really thankful that I have Travis here for a while. I don't know if I could really do it alone at this point. I probably just wouldn't eat. It isn't complicated. It is just draining. I know it will get better; we are just waiting for that to happen.
Because of lack of sleep, seesawing hormones, and having no time for myself, I definitely have the baby blues. I wouldn't say I have postpartum depression or anything, but I am a little crazy. I was really happy in the hospital, but about two days after I got home, I started getting weepy, feeling anxious and overwhelmed, and feeling upset. I really want it to go away, and I know it will go away within the month. It just makes the whole experience a lot less enjoyable. In the morning, once I am awake, I feel a lot happier, and I enjoy her. However, once I get tired, I sometimes feel really upset. I won't go through everything I'm feeling, but it just is such a sharp contrast to how I felt those first couple days. It upsets me.
I don't know what I expected to feel. 50-80% of women get the baby blues, and it resolves itself within the first few weeks. I just wish I could feel happy all the time. She is sweet and cute, and I know I love her. I just don't feel it. Particularly between the hours of 10pm and 7am....
It doesn't help that I have now become an obsessive neat freak. Everything has to look great whenever I go to sleep. Yesterday, when she was sleeping, instead of sleeping or relaxing, I decided that I needed to organize my dresser and clean out my closet.
Yes, I might be losing my mind. If you find it, please give it back to me. I could really use it.
~Cara
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
The baby is BORN!!!
Aria Kay McGarrah
Born 12/16/11 at 8:54 p.m.
Weight: 6lbs. 12 oz.
Length: 19 inches
I was set to go to my 39 week doctors appointment which is right next to the hospital. The night before, we watched the Republican debate and went to bed early, so we could wake up at 9 for our appointment. I woke up at 1 am and couldn't go back to sleep until 3am. At 9, I naturally woke up to go to the bathroom, and I felt a bunch of trickling down my leg on the walk to the bathroom. My water broke! I decided that I would take a shower and get everything ready so that I could go to my appointment and make sure that it was amniotic fluid. We got there, and the doctor sent me over to the hospital.
We went over to the hospital, and they put me on a pitocin drip. I was apparently having contractions, but I wasn't feeling them. So the nurses slowly moved up my pitocin dosage until I started having regular contractions. When I came into the hospital, I was 4 cm and 90% effaced, and by the time I started to feel them, I was 5.5 cm and fully effaced. The doctor suggested that I get an epidural at that point, but I decided to wait until I was in more pain so that the epidural wouldn't freak me out as much. Oh, and putting in the IV was kinda painful. We had a little trouble getting it taped down.
So, Travis's parents came by, we called people, and the contractions got worse and worse. Finally, I decided that I needed an epidural. I was about 8-9 (out of 10) cm dilated at that point, and I got it. The epidural hurt a little bit, but my contractions were bad enough to make the pain from the epidural seem minimal. After I got the epidural, I felt pretty good. Right after that, the doctor came in and said I was 9 cm and going to be ready to push pretty soon.
Every time I had a contraction, I felt like my butt cheek was spasm-ing. And a few people came in until I got checked again. She didn't really have to check me because they could see Aria's head. So, it was time to push, and they were actually afraid to put my feet in the stirrups until everything was ready because Aria was already starting to crown. I only pushed for 15 minutes or less, and she was here!
They stitched me up because I did tear a tiny bit, but I really didn't feel anything. Apparently, I have a high pain tolerance because before I got my epidural, my contractions were really strong and only a minute apart. I really just was so afraid of the epidural that I dealt with a lot before I caved. Everything was really very easy. The worst part was getting the IV.
When they put Aria on me, the first thing I felt was honestly shock and fear. I had no idea what to do, and I felt really helpless. Then they took her away and did her APGAR score. When they brought her back, I slowly started to feel a connection, and after an hour of having her in my arms, I didn't want to let her go. She fed very easily. We took pictures, and she actually opened her eyes and smiled! It freaked out the doctors! They were amazed by her and said how beautiful she was.
So that was the birth of my sweet baby girl. Now, we are doing well. We are getting a fair amount of sleep, and she is feeding well. It kind of hurts sometimes... but it isn't too bad. I stopped taking my hydrocodon so that I wouldn't be making her sleepy all the time. So my stitches hurt. In fact, we went out to do some errand running today, and it started to hurt the stitches. I had to nurse her twice while we were sitting in the parking lot. It wasn't too bad, but I am pretty sure that 3 random people may have seen my boob today.... Oh well. I think going through birth and having a bunch of people stare at your special places makes you a LOT less modest. Especially when you boobs are used as a functional thing and not a sexual one. I think my perspective on boobs in general has changed dramatically.
Any way, I guess I will end this post. I will try to update everything as I go along.
Born 12/16/11 at 8:54 p.m.
Weight: 6lbs. 12 oz.
Length: 19 inches
I was set to go to my 39 week doctors appointment which is right next to the hospital. The night before, we watched the Republican debate and went to bed early, so we could wake up at 9 for our appointment. I woke up at 1 am and couldn't go back to sleep until 3am. At 9, I naturally woke up to go to the bathroom, and I felt a bunch of trickling down my leg on the walk to the bathroom. My water broke! I decided that I would take a shower and get everything ready so that I could go to my appointment and make sure that it was amniotic fluid. We got there, and the doctor sent me over to the hospital.
We went over to the hospital, and they put me on a pitocin drip. I was apparently having contractions, but I wasn't feeling them. So the nurses slowly moved up my pitocin dosage until I started having regular contractions. When I came into the hospital, I was 4 cm and 90% effaced, and by the time I started to feel them, I was 5.5 cm and fully effaced. The doctor suggested that I get an epidural at that point, but I decided to wait until I was in more pain so that the epidural wouldn't freak me out as much. Oh, and putting in the IV was kinda painful. We had a little trouble getting it taped down.
So, Travis's parents came by, we called people, and the contractions got worse and worse. Finally, I decided that I needed an epidural. I was about 8-9 (out of 10) cm dilated at that point, and I got it. The epidural hurt a little bit, but my contractions were bad enough to make the pain from the epidural seem minimal. After I got the epidural, I felt pretty good. Right after that, the doctor came in and said I was 9 cm and going to be ready to push pretty soon.
Every time I had a contraction, I felt like my butt cheek was spasm-ing. And a few people came in until I got checked again. She didn't really have to check me because they could see Aria's head. So, it was time to push, and they were actually afraid to put my feet in the stirrups until everything was ready because Aria was already starting to crown. I only pushed for 15 minutes or less, and she was here!
They stitched me up because I did tear a tiny bit, but I really didn't feel anything. Apparently, I have a high pain tolerance because before I got my epidural, my contractions were really strong and only a minute apart. I really just was so afraid of the epidural that I dealt with a lot before I caved. Everything was really very easy. The worst part was getting the IV.
When they put Aria on me, the first thing I felt was honestly shock and fear. I had no idea what to do, and I felt really helpless. Then they took her away and did her APGAR score. When they brought her back, I slowly started to feel a connection, and after an hour of having her in my arms, I didn't want to let her go. She fed very easily. We took pictures, and she actually opened her eyes and smiled! It freaked out the doctors! They were amazed by her and said how beautiful she was.
So that was the birth of my sweet baby girl. Now, we are doing well. We are getting a fair amount of sleep, and she is feeding well. It kind of hurts sometimes... but it isn't too bad. I stopped taking my hydrocodon so that I wouldn't be making her sleepy all the time. So my stitches hurt. In fact, we went out to do some errand running today, and it started to hurt the stitches. I had to nurse her twice while we were sitting in the parking lot. It wasn't too bad, but I am pretty sure that 3 random people may have seen my boob today.... Oh well. I think going through birth and having a bunch of people stare at your special places makes you a LOT less modest. Especially when you boobs are used as a functional thing and not a sexual one. I think my perspective on boobs in general has changed dramatically.
Any way, I guess I will end this post. I will try to update everything as I go along.
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
39 weeks.
Yeah... woohoo. 39 Weeks. I'm still pregnant. I'm still contracting. Nothing good enough to go to the hospital. Tomorrow is really 39 weeks, but I thought I would go ahead and post while I wait for Travis to finish eating. We are going to HEB. I keep on shopping for like 4 days at a time because I don't know when she is going to come. Probably never. I am just going to be pregnant forever.
Travis still doesn't have a job, and we thought that he would by now which is stressful. And he didn't do amazing this semester.... *bikes*. So maybe stress will force Aria out because I think the toxic hormones in my body would make a baby WANT to come out. But who knows. I might have to just be induced.
Travis still doesn't have a job, and we thought that he would by now which is stressful. And he didn't do amazing this semester.... *bikes*. So maybe stress will force Aria out because I think the toxic hormones in my body would make a baby WANT to come out. But who knows. I might have to just be induced.
Monday, December 12, 2011
I'm still pregnant?
Yeah. I guess I have a lot to update about this week.
On December 2nd, I went into my OB's office and found out that I was 3 cm dilated and 50% effaced. After getting checked, we went to San Antonio, and on the way home, I started having really bad contractions. They finally stopped.
A large portion of that week I had little false contractions, and they hurt. We kept on thinking in was going to be it, and nothing happened.
So on December 9th, we had another doctors appointment. The doctor was like- you're still here? Yes, I am regrettably still here. So she proceeded to measure how long my uterus is, and she had to push like almost into my boobs. The doctor was like, wow that baby has nowhere left to go. So then, she proceeded to check my cervix, and I was 3.5 cm dilated. Generally, you are admitted to the hospital around 3 cm, so it was kind of annoying that I was still floating around this area. The doctor also said that my cervix was really soft, so while she was up there, she decided to stretch it out and strip my membranes.
Stripping your membranes is when the doctor goes in past your cervix and detaches the amniotic sac from the inside of your cervix and uterus. If your body is ready (which mine was because my cervix is so soft) stripping membranes causes 2/3 women have their baby within 72 hours. After she did this, she told me she thought I was going to be one of the 2 women. She seemed to think that this would work.
Well I am here to tell you that she was wrong. That happened Friday at noon, and it is now Monday night. I had some really bad contractions on Friday night, but they were only in 30-40 minute bursts. Yesterday and today, I really haven't had many contractions. I just feel horrible. I am very sore in my back and in my abdomen. Also, I am really sleepy all the time. I think that I am just going to give up until Friday. They can induce you at 39 weeks or later. I know that her due date isn't until the 22nd or the 25th, but she should really be out by now. In fact, I didn't even have to bother doing another ultrasound because I am pretty sure my doctor thought that I wouldn't be at the next appointment. Maybe they will strip my membranes again, and she will come out. Friday would be a good day because Travis's mom will be done with her work by then and can come down to Austin.
I guess that it just feels like I am wasting my life right now. She is developed... my body is ready for her to be out... and I really am in too much discomfort to enjoy things very much. I get occasional bursts of energy, but they are generally at night when I should be winding down for bed. I can't enjoy just hanging around the house and watching movies with Travis. I need to finish decorating for Christmas, but I physically can barely get off the couch. I kind of did that one to myself though because on Saturday and Friday we walked a LOT to try to get her to come. So walking feels like I am 200+ pounds with the leg strength of a beagle.
I'll try to remember to update on Friday or if I happen to go into labor before that. I am thinking that it is not very likely though. Oh well.
On December 2nd, I went into my OB's office and found out that I was 3 cm dilated and 50% effaced. After getting checked, we went to San Antonio, and on the way home, I started having really bad contractions. They finally stopped.
A large portion of that week I had little false contractions, and they hurt. We kept on thinking in was going to be it, and nothing happened.
So on December 9th, we had another doctors appointment. The doctor was like- you're still here? Yes, I am regrettably still here. So she proceeded to measure how long my uterus is, and she had to push like almost into my boobs. The doctor was like, wow that baby has nowhere left to go. So then, she proceeded to check my cervix, and I was 3.5 cm dilated. Generally, you are admitted to the hospital around 3 cm, so it was kind of annoying that I was still floating around this area. The doctor also said that my cervix was really soft, so while she was up there, she decided to stretch it out and strip my membranes.
Stripping your membranes is when the doctor goes in past your cervix and detaches the amniotic sac from the inside of your cervix and uterus. If your body is ready (which mine was because my cervix is so soft) stripping membranes causes 2/3 women have their baby within 72 hours. After she did this, she told me she thought I was going to be one of the 2 women. She seemed to think that this would work.
Well I am here to tell you that she was wrong. That happened Friday at noon, and it is now Monday night. I had some really bad contractions on Friday night, but they were only in 30-40 minute bursts. Yesterday and today, I really haven't had many contractions. I just feel horrible. I am very sore in my back and in my abdomen. Also, I am really sleepy all the time. I think that I am just going to give up until Friday. They can induce you at 39 weeks or later. I know that her due date isn't until the 22nd or the 25th, but she should really be out by now. In fact, I didn't even have to bother doing another ultrasound because I am pretty sure my doctor thought that I wouldn't be at the next appointment. Maybe they will strip my membranes again, and she will come out. Friday would be a good day because Travis's mom will be done with her work by then and can come down to Austin.
I guess that it just feels like I am wasting my life right now. She is developed... my body is ready for her to be out... and I really am in too much discomfort to enjoy things very much. I get occasional bursts of energy, but they are generally at night when I should be winding down for bed. I can't enjoy just hanging around the house and watching movies with Travis. I need to finish decorating for Christmas, but I physically can barely get off the couch. I kind of did that one to myself though because on Saturday and Friday we walked a LOT to try to get her to come. So walking feels like I am 200+ pounds with the leg strength of a beagle.
I'll try to remember to update on Friday or if I happen to go into labor before that. I am thinking that it is not very likely though. Oh well.
Monday, December 5, 2011
Hanging out in the meter lab
So I am hanging out in the engineering building because Travis is working on his project, and I finally gave up sitting at home by myself. The chair is definitely not super comfortable after more than 10 minutes in here but oh well! I had hopes that I might run into some of our mutual friends while I was up here, but apparently, every engineer in the world comes up to the meter lab at the end of the semester. lol.
Uhm. I guess on Thursday it will be 38 weeks. I have another appointment on Friday. I am kind of hoping that we won't make it till Friday, but for some reason, I have been doing really well today. I haven't had any contractions or anything of that nature. So I might make it to Friday. I think that once Travis gets through his two finals, I am going to start taking measures into my own hands. Basically, in one week, I am just going to go ahead and send myself into labor... or at least do everything possible to make it happen. I'm thinking : walk to Starbucks, get a cinnamon dolce latte, and continue to walk around central park as I drink it. Then, sit on my bouncy ball and bounce for an hour. Then, we will go get something spicy. I guess Mexican food because I am not very good with stuff like Indian food.
Haha. I have it alllll planned out. Haha. She should be born on 12/12/11 so that her first birthday is 12/12/12! Ya! That's why she hasn't come yet. Or maybe I just feel super great today because I am about to go into labor. They do say that that can happen the day before.
Okay, I am definitely running out of things to talk about, but I am kind of bored. So I don't really have much else to do except type on here.....
So I decided to get on pinterest.... that was a BAD idea. I am so freaking hungry now, and all that is around are computers and people. Tempting. Actually, I finally got a craving for Kirby Queso. Maybe I can go to torchies. I feel bad because we just got food to cook, but I don't think I can last another 20 minutes here, 10 minutes home, and 30 minutes to cook. Omg... that is a whole HOUR.
MEH
Uhm. I guess on Thursday it will be 38 weeks. I have another appointment on Friday. I am kind of hoping that we won't make it till Friday, but for some reason, I have been doing really well today. I haven't had any contractions or anything of that nature. So I might make it to Friday. I think that once Travis gets through his two finals, I am going to start taking measures into my own hands. Basically, in one week, I am just going to go ahead and send myself into labor... or at least do everything possible to make it happen. I'm thinking : walk to Starbucks, get a cinnamon dolce latte, and continue to walk around central park as I drink it. Then, sit on my bouncy ball and bounce for an hour. Then, we will go get something spicy. I guess Mexican food because I am not very good with stuff like Indian food.
Haha. I have it alllll planned out. Haha. She should be born on 12/12/11 so that her first birthday is 12/12/12! Ya! That's why she hasn't come yet. Or maybe I just feel super great today because I am about to go into labor. They do say that that can happen the day before.
Okay, I am definitely running out of things to talk about, but I am kind of bored. So I don't really have much else to do except type on here.....
So I decided to get on pinterest.... that was a BAD idea. I am so freaking hungry now, and all that is around are computers and people. Tempting. Actually, I finally got a craving for Kirby Queso. Maybe I can go to torchies. I feel bad because we just got food to cook, but I don't think I can last another 20 minutes here, 10 minutes home, and 30 minutes to cook. Omg... that is a whole HOUR.
MEH
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Almost there
So I haven't really had the energy or time to sit down and write a post in a while, but Travis is gone. So I might as well update.
1. I went to the doctor on Friday. I am 37 weeks and full term, so the baby could come any time now. AND, apparently, that is definitely true. I am already 3 cm dilated (10 cm is pushing) and 50% effaced (or thinned out.... don't worry about it if you don't know what that means). This is a pretty common point to get to right before labor. Also, I have had some of the pre-labor signs. Well pretty much all of them. So really she could come any day. I'm thinking I might have about a week. My doctor was saying that we will see if I make it to the next visit this coming Friday.
2. I think they gave up caring about her size. Because I was supposed to get another sonogram, but she kinda felt for Aria and said she was a really good size. She said, "I love these average to smaller sized babies. We have been having a run of really big ones on the wing." So, I'm thinking Aria is good for size.
3. I have been having some intense contractions. I guess they aren't really Braxton Hicks because they are actually dilating me to some amount. They hurt a bit, and I think it is just a matter of time before they get strong enough to send me into true labor. Riding in the car sets them off really badly.
Yeah, so that's it. Nothing else really goes on in my life. lol
1. I went to the doctor on Friday. I am 37 weeks and full term, so the baby could come any time now. AND, apparently, that is definitely true. I am already 3 cm dilated (10 cm is pushing) and 50% effaced (or thinned out.... don't worry about it if you don't know what that means). This is a pretty common point to get to right before labor. Also, I have had some of the pre-labor signs. Well pretty much all of them. So really she could come any day. I'm thinking I might have about a week. My doctor was saying that we will see if I make it to the next visit this coming Friday.
2. I think they gave up caring about her size. Because I was supposed to get another sonogram, but she kinda felt for Aria and said she was a really good size. She said, "I love these average to smaller sized babies. We have been having a run of really big ones on the wing." So, I'm thinking Aria is good for size.
3. I have been having some intense contractions. I guess they aren't really Braxton Hicks because they are actually dilating me to some amount. They hurt a bit, and I think it is just a matter of time before they get strong enough to send me into true labor. Riding in the car sets them off really badly.
Yeah, so that's it. Nothing else really goes on in my life. lol
Monday, November 28, 2011
11-28-11 part 2
You know what would be really yummy? Melting caramel, mixing it with potato chips, and letting that harden. Then, dipping that in chocolate. It would be like cake balls, but potato chips and caramel.
Must try this....
Must try this....
11-28-11
So here are my thoughts in list form. That is all I can seem to do nowadays.
1. I am procrastinating cleaning and making myself look semi-presentable.
2. I realized today that usually you have to get babies special lotion, diaper rash cream, and detergent so that their skin isn't irritated.... Funny thing is, I use lotion that is for babies, petroleum jelly, and a sensitive skin detergent. Yay, less stuff to get.
3. I found a pair of sweatpants from last year... I put them on, and they still fit! Okay... I won't lie; they are definitely bootylicious. haha yay!
4. It is 65 degrees in my apartment. Strange thing is... I'm actually hot right now..... Weird.
5. I think I might just be pregnant forever.
6. I had a dream that Aria was kicking me in the ribs, and then, I woke up... and she was kicking me in the ribs! lol She will like rest on top of my ribs when I am sleeping. I have no idea how she manages to do that. But I will find her feet, and I have to push them back down into my stomach area. Regrettably, that doesn't stop her from reappearing in my rib cage 30 seconds later. Last night I got up and just started bouncing up and down in hopes that she might go to sleep and stop kicking me.
7. I watched a video last night about how to change a diaper like a pro. Confession: I have never changed a diaper... or fed a baby for that matter. Actually, last time I held a baby, I was eleven. Anyway, I have my theoretical knowledge down for baby changing.... just have to see if I can actually do it.
Okay. Now I am starting to write about stuff that isn't really that interesting, so I should probably go work on cleaning. BLEH.
1. I am procrastinating cleaning and making myself look semi-presentable.
2. I realized today that usually you have to get babies special lotion, diaper rash cream, and detergent so that their skin isn't irritated.... Funny thing is, I use lotion that is for babies, petroleum jelly, and a sensitive skin detergent. Yay, less stuff to get.
3. I found a pair of sweatpants from last year... I put them on, and they still fit! Okay... I won't lie; they are definitely bootylicious. haha yay!
4. It is 65 degrees in my apartment. Strange thing is... I'm actually hot right now..... Weird.
5. I think I might just be pregnant forever.
6. I had a dream that Aria was kicking me in the ribs, and then, I woke up... and she was kicking me in the ribs! lol She will like rest on top of my ribs when I am sleeping. I have no idea how she manages to do that. But I will find her feet, and I have to push them back down into my stomach area. Regrettably, that doesn't stop her from reappearing in my rib cage 30 seconds later. Last night I got up and just started bouncing up and down in hopes that she might go to sleep and stop kicking me.
7. I watched a video last night about how to change a diaper like a pro. Confession: I have never changed a diaper... or fed a baby for that matter. Actually, last time I held a baby, I was eleven. Anyway, I have my theoretical knowledge down for baby changing.... just have to see if I can actually do it.
Okay. Now I am starting to write about stuff that isn't really that interesting, so I should probably go work on cleaning. BLEH.
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Quick update!
So here is a quick update. I am doing this in list form because Travis is going to need his computer back soon.
1. I am less than a month away! On Thursday I will be full term. AKA BABY FULLY COOKED!!
2. I still have a few little things that I could use to do before Aria gets here, but none of them are that important. We just did a thorough cleaning of everywhere and set up her bassinet.
3. Thanksgiving was fun! Travis mom and sister stayed for a while, so I got people to entertain me.
4. My parents are coming up on Tuesday and staying Wednesday so I don't have to be all alone when Travis isn't here.
5. I've been having false contractions pretty regularly. Like almost everyday. I am having a lot of the pre-pre-birth stuff happening. And yes, I meant to write that twice.
6. I think I almost got a cold from thanksgiving/black Friday, but I managed to bring myself back from the brink by sleeping for 11 hours.
7. Lauren managed to get us some SUPER cheap baby stuff at Bealls. It was 50 percent off, then a 20% off coupon, then her 20% off discount for working there. So yeah! It was awesome
I guess that is pretty much it. I feel like the waiting game has set in for sure. I am so ready to just have her. I didn't think it could get more uncomfortable, but then I got the gifts of false contractions whenever I stand or walk for too long (or sometimes for no good reason at all), being unable to calm my heart flutters, and having swollen feet. BTW swollen feet feel fuuuuuuuunnny!!! lol It is kind of like I jammed my toe without the intense pain. They feel tingly! lol.
I feel like I have a lot I can write about but for some reason I just can't focus on a thought for more than 1 minute before I just switch to the next one. When I go back and read this after Aria is born, I am going to be so confused.
Oh and I got a baby book! So now I can start working on it before she gets here! It is precious.
Oh and her bassinet is really cute. It is kind of safari themed. It has a giraffe on it and stuff. I know it isn't all pink and whatever which is kind of weird for me, but it is going in my room. I guess I figured that it needed to match my stuff more, and I might want to reuse it someday. Unlike a crib, changing the sheets on a frilly bassinet won't make it look any more boyish.
OW contraction. Now I am going for sure.
1. I am less than a month away! On Thursday I will be full term. AKA BABY FULLY COOKED!!
2. I still have a few little things that I could use to do before Aria gets here, but none of them are that important. We just did a thorough cleaning of everywhere and set up her bassinet.
3. Thanksgiving was fun! Travis mom and sister stayed for a while, so I got people to entertain me.
4. My parents are coming up on Tuesday and staying Wednesday so I don't have to be all alone when Travis isn't here.
5. I've been having false contractions pretty regularly. Like almost everyday. I am having a lot of the pre-pre-birth stuff happening. And yes, I meant to write that twice.
6. I think I almost got a cold from thanksgiving/black Friday, but I managed to bring myself back from the brink by sleeping for 11 hours.
7. Lauren managed to get us some SUPER cheap baby stuff at Bealls. It was 50 percent off, then a 20% off coupon, then her 20% off discount for working there. So yeah! It was awesome
I guess that is pretty much it. I feel like the waiting game has set in for sure. I am so ready to just have her. I didn't think it could get more uncomfortable, but then I got the gifts of false contractions whenever I stand or walk for too long (or sometimes for no good reason at all), being unable to calm my heart flutters, and having swollen feet. BTW swollen feet feel fuuuuuuuunnny!!! lol It is kind of like I jammed my toe without the intense pain. They feel tingly! lol.
I feel like I have a lot I can write about but for some reason I just can't focus on a thought for more than 1 minute before I just switch to the next one. When I go back and read this after Aria is born, I am going to be so confused.
Oh and I got a baby book! So now I can start working on it before she gets here! It is precious.
Oh and her bassinet is really cute. It is kind of safari themed. It has a giraffe on it and stuff. I know it isn't all pink and whatever which is kind of weird for me, but it is going in my room. I guess I figured that it needed to match my stuff more, and I might want to reuse it someday. Unlike a crib, changing the sheets on a frilly bassinet won't make it look any more boyish.
OW contraction. Now I am going for sure.
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
False Alarm
Yeah, they were false contractions. Woot. But seriously, I was starting to get a little excited because I really want her out. I know she is supposed to be my Christmas present, but I would much rather that she be a Thanksgiving present. I am just really sick of being huge. I know that is really silly and superficial, but there are a lot of down sides other than just appearance.
1. I run into stuff ALL the time. Travis even runs into me because he forgets how big I am.
2. Hugging Travis just doesn't work because I am so big.
3. It adds so much extra weight which makes sleeping on my side hard for:
a. balance
b. compressing my hips and ribs (kinda painful by the way)
4. Physical appearance
5. Harder to do every day things (tying shoes, bending over, etc.)
Yeah. Anyways I guess I should get back to cleaning. Thanksgiving is tomorrow, and we are getting together with my parents, Travis's parents, and my brother's family. Then, Travis's mom and sister are coming to spend the night. So, cleaning.... and cooking... BLEH.
1. I run into stuff ALL the time. Travis even runs into me because he forgets how big I am.
2. Hugging Travis just doesn't work because I am so big.
3. It adds so much extra weight which makes sleeping on my side hard for:
a. balance
b. compressing my hips and ribs (kinda painful by the way)
4. Physical appearance
5. Harder to do every day things (tying shoes, bending over, etc.)
Yeah. Anyways I guess I should get back to cleaning. Thanksgiving is tomorrow, and we are getting together with my parents, Travis's parents, and my brother's family. Then, Travis's mom and sister are coming to spend the night. So, cleaning.... and cooking... BLEH.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
False Labor
So in case I am in labor right now, I am having contractions. I think they are the false contractions just because they aren't regular, but they hurt like a buuuunch. It is kinda weird. It reminds me of having like really bad gas pains like food poisoning. That is the best I can do to describe it. I am trying to time them to make sure they aren't regular, and I haven't been able to get a good read on them. When I get up and do stuff, it is a lot worse than when I am sitting down and just on the computer. So yeah, they can't be real contractions.....
On a bad note, this is making it IMPOSSIBLE for me to clean my apartment for Travis's family. They are coming up on Thanksgiving, and I don't want the first time that they see our new place to be scared. I mean... its not really that bad, but yeah.. Okay it is getting too painful to write, but if I end up in the hospital in a couple hours, don't say that I didn't warn you!
On a bad note, this is making it IMPOSSIBLE for me to clean my apartment for Travis's family. They are coming up on Thanksgiving, and I don't want the first time that they see our new place to be scared. I mean... its not really that bad, but yeah.. Okay it is getting too painful to write, but if I end up in the hospital in a couple hours, don't say that I didn't warn you!
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Small Baby?
So I went to the doctor on Friday. I basically have a month left before the due date. But when I went in, the doctor said that Aria was in the 20th percentile for weight, so they were going to need to do another ultrasound in a few weeks to make sure that she is still growing okay. She was guessed to be about 4 pounds 14 ounces, and she was supposed to be like 5 pounds 7 ounces. The doctor said that she wasn't really worried about it because the measurements that they use to guess the weight can sometimes be off, and because Travis is long and skinny, she just might be a long and skinny baby. The doc said that she might end up being only six or six and a half pounds when she is born. I don't know, but that just seems so SMALL to me. I guess I am just worried that it was something that I did to cause it. I have gained 30 pounds, and I only need to gain like 27 the whole pregnancy. BUT in the past 2 months, I've only gained like 4 pounds. And the fact that I gained 4 pounds is my fault because I started making sure that I wasn't overeating because I gained those 17 pounds in two months, but I didn't think that could really hurt her. I'm still gaining weight, and I don't feel hungry.
On the bright side, she has a TON of hair, like a LOT. You can see it on the ultrasound. I guess she is taking after Travis's side of the family. But if she was undernourished, there is no way she would kick me so much and have so much hair.
Also, on a selfish note, I hope this doesn't cause her to stay in there for longer. Seriously, I just want her to gain her weight, do her thing, and GET OUUUUUT. I know she needs to do her baby stuff, but this is ridiculous. Especially because I am a week and a half away from being full term. I am getting really anxious. I want to see her, and I want to feel like myself again. Thought, I am definitely not super excited about all the pain that is associated with her birth.
AND if she come early, you KNOW it is going to be when Travis is in a final. I bet I would have the quickest labor ever and have to go to the hospital alone while Travis would be taking a test. I know that is pessimistic, but truly, these are the moments my life is made of nowadays.
I really do need to stop blogging on here when I am in a worrisome mood. Granted, that is like all the time. I am less worried and freaked out than I seem on here though. Promise. I've never been one of those girls who gets super PMS-y and mood swing-y, and if I do, I just take it as my own fault and not hormonal. But right now, oh boy, I cry for like NO reason. Let's list the reasons that I have cried in the past week. It will make you laugh.
1. Because I decorated the Christmas tree, and it is pretty.
2. Because my tree is pretty again.
3. Because my tree is pretty again.
4. Because my tree reminded me of Christmas.
5. Because Travis started pretending to be sad when I poked him.
6. Because Travis was gone (like 50 times)
7. Because I'm lonely
8. Because I didn't want to spend money on food
9. Because Thanksgiving is soon
10. Because my body hurts
11. Because I'm big (like 50 times for this 1 too)
12. Because Aria is small
13. Because I saw a really cute baby at Trudys
14. Because I saw a really cute baby on One Tree Hill
Maybe I will stop listing because this is ridiculous. But you get the picture. About twice a day, I get weepy.
MEH I NEED TO WORK ON THANK YOU NOTES!
~Cara
On the bright side, she has a TON of hair, like a LOT. You can see it on the ultrasound. I guess she is taking after Travis's side of the family. But if she was undernourished, there is no way she would kick me so much and have so much hair.
Also, on a selfish note, I hope this doesn't cause her to stay in there for longer. Seriously, I just want her to gain her weight, do her thing, and GET OUUUUUT. I know she needs to do her baby stuff, but this is ridiculous. Especially because I am a week and a half away from being full term. I am getting really anxious. I want to see her, and I want to feel like myself again. Thought, I am definitely not super excited about all the pain that is associated with her birth.
AND if she come early, you KNOW it is going to be when Travis is in a final. I bet I would have the quickest labor ever and have to go to the hospital alone while Travis would be taking a test. I know that is pessimistic, but truly, these are the moments my life is made of nowadays.
I really do need to stop blogging on here when I am in a worrisome mood. Granted, that is like all the time. I am less worried and freaked out than I seem on here though. Promise. I've never been one of those girls who gets super PMS-y and mood swing-y, and if I do, I just take it as my own fault and not hormonal. But right now, oh boy, I cry for like NO reason. Let's list the reasons that I have cried in the past week. It will make you laugh.
1. Because I decorated the Christmas tree, and it is pretty.
2. Because my tree is pretty again.
3. Because my tree is pretty again.
4. Because my tree reminded me of Christmas.
5. Because Travis started pretending to be sad when I poked him.
6. Because Travis was gone (like 50 times)
7. Because I'm lonely
8. Because I didn't want to spend money on food
9. Because Thanksgiving is soon
10. Because my body hurts
11. Because I'm big (like 50 times for this 1 too)
12. Because Aria is small
13. Because I saw a really cute baby at Trudys
14. Because I saw a really cute baby on One Tree Hill
Maybe I will stop listing because this is ridiculous. But you get the picture. About twice a day, I get weepy.
MEH I NEED TO WORK ON THANK YOU NOTES!
~Cara
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Wedding Photos
Wow. So, I am going through my huge CD of wedding photos and posting them 5 at a time because facebook is evil. BUT now is definitely not the time to be doing this, and by now, I mean the last month of pregnancy. I keep switching between self loathing, like wishing I wasn't so huge, and being super emotional and crying because the pictures are so pretty. Tuesday starts the last month, and I am so ready for this to be over. I am definitely like one big emotional roller coaster, and it is scary how quickly my mood can switch.
I still wasn't even that small for my wedding. Bleh. Mood change. I better get off of here before this becomes an I'm fat rant.
I still wasn't even that small for my wedding. Bleh. Mood change. I better get off of here before this becomes an I'm fat rant.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
UGH
This is day 3 of being alone all day until late at night. I made dinner for Travis thinking that he might come home at like 900 or so, but I guess not. I am a little irritated because he has all of these group meetings, and he comes home having completed nothing. They just aren't productive at all. What is the point if you aren't going to get anything done? I am just so sick of being stuck here. I kinda want to move back home with my parents or his parents till the semester is over. I have nothing to do, and I am so lonely. The strange thing is that generally I LOVE my time alone, but when I spend this much time alone, it just sucks. Its not like I really want to go out exactly, but I guess I just had something to do or someone to talk to around the apartment.
In theory, it wouldn't be a good idea for me to be out of town because I could go into labor and then have to get back here. BUT Travis's phone isn't really working, or at least it doesn't in the engineering building. He also doesn't check his email, SO if I was to go into labor, I would be S.O.L anyway.... I would have to walk there!
In theory, it wouldn't be a good idea for me to be out of town because I could go into labor and then have to get back here. BUT Travis's phone isn't really working, or at least it doesn't in the engineering building. He also doesn't check his email, SO if I was to go into labor, I would be S.O.L anyway.... I would have to walk there!
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Best Husband Ever
I just feel like talking about how awesome Travis is.
On Friday, I woke up to Travis coming home early and cooking me breakfast in bed (granted it was toast, but that is cooking for him). Then he gave me a stocking with some slippers and the harry potter 7 part 2 DVD. It was really sweet because I didn't expect him home for another hour and a half, and we laid in bed and watched Harry Potter. We also painted Christmas ornaments and took a walk to collect acorns. It was just an awesome day.
Yesterday, my car battery died. It would only hold a charge for 2 days before it pooped out, so I needed to go get a new one. Today, Travis took my car to go get a new battery, so I didn't have to which for me is may be the biggest present ever because:
1. I HATE talking to strangers
2. I think Aria dropped, so I'm kinda uncomfortable, especially sitting.
So yeah. Travis is sweet.
My friend, Christina, whose baby was due on Thanksgiving, had her little boy today! It is so exciting, not just for her, but because her baby has always been like a month ahead of mine, so now, it feels like Aria will be born in a month. I am ready for her to get here!!!
I also just can't wait till Thanksgiving!! First, I get to see my parents, Travis's parents, and my brother's family. Second, I get to start decorating for Christmas, and my Christmas obsession will finally be justified.... or at least seasonal. Third.... DRESSING AND CRANBERRY SAUCE!!!!! YUUUUUUUUUUUM
Lol
I am going to get on pinterest now. I am hungry, and I think I might go to the grocery store.
On Friday, I woke up to Travis coming home early and cooking me breakfast in bed (granted it was toast, but that is cooking for him). Then he gave me a stocking with some slippers and the harry potter 7 part 2 DVD. It was really sweet because I didn't expect him home for another hour and a half, and we laid in bed and watched Harry Potter. We also painted Christmas ornaments and took a walk to collect acorns. It was just an awesome day.
Yesterday, my car battery died. It would only hold a charge for 2 days before it pooped out, so I needed to go get a new one. Today, Travis took my car to go get a new battery, so I didn't have to which for me is may be the biggest present ever because:
1. I HATE talking to strangers
2. I think Aria dropped, so I'm kinda uncomfortable, especially sitting.
So yeah. Travis is sweet.
My friend, Christina, whose baby was due on Thanksgiving, had her little boy today! It is so exciting, not just for her, but because her baby has always been like a month ahead of mine, so now, it feels like Aria will be born in a month. I am ready for her to get here!!!
I also just can't wait till Thanksgiving!! First, I get to see my parents, Travis's parents, and my brother's family. Second, I get to start decorating for Christmas, and my Christmas obsession will finally be justified.... or at least seasonal. Third.... DRESSING AND CRANBERRY SAUCE!!!!! YUUUUUUUUUUUM
Lol
I am going to get on pinterest now. I am hungry, and I think I might go to the grocery store.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Slacking
So I have been slacking on the blog. Here is a summary of everything:
1. Baby showers= awesome
2. I need to do thank you notes, but I don't have everyone's addresses. Oh well. I guess I will figure it out!
3. I sent in the hospital pre-registration, so everything important is done
4. I am 34 weeks right now, and yesterday, I thought the baby might have dropped. She feels sooooo very low. It is hard to sit and walk. Maybe she will be fully cooked soon!
5. I start going to the doctor every week now. Fun?
6. Thanksgiving in 2 weeks! Woohoo!
7. I am super bored and want it to be Christmas.
8. Is it socially appropriate to sleep like 16 hours a day?
Yeah, so that's about it. Since the baby shower, I haven't done anything super exciting. Travis and I went down to Houston for him to interview at Foster Wheeler. I hope he gets that job because it has flexible hours, a decent pay, and is in Houston, close to both of our families. He did already get a job offer from BHP, so we won't go without a job. But he would be a on a rig for 2/4 weeks for 3 years... So he would miss a lot of Aria's life, the good part too like when she is taking her first steps and saying her first words. That and during those 2 weeks on the rig he would be working/ on call like 24/7. So we will see. I think he will get another offer somewhere.
So I guess quite a bit has happened, but I don't know. I'm just tired, and the baby is soooooo low. I am like literally waddling because I can't really raise my legs up to take normal steps. I just kinda swing my legs around and... well waddle.
1. Baby showers= awesome
2. I need to do thank you notes, but I don't have everyone's addresses. Oh well. I guess I will figure it out!
3. I sent in the hospital pre-registration, so everything important is done
4. I am 34 weeks right now, and yesterday, I thought the baby might have dropped. She feels sooooo very low. It is hard to sit and walk. Maybe she will be fully cooked soon!
5. I start going to the doctor every week now. Fun?
6. Thanksgiving in 2 weeks! Woohoo!
7. I am super bored and want it to be Christmas.
8. Is it socially appropriate to sleep like 16 hours a day?
Yeah, so that's about it. Since the baby shower, I haven't done anything super exciting. Travis and I went down to Houston for him to interview at Foster Wheeler. I hope he gets that job because it has flexible hours, a decent pay, and is in Houston, close to both of our families. He did already get a job offer from BHP, so we won't go without a job. But he would be a on a rig for 2/4 weeks for 3 years... So he would miss a lot of Aria's life, the good part too like when she is taking her first steps and saying her first words. That and during those 2 weeks on the rig he would be working/ on call like 24/7. So we will see. I think he will get another offer somewhere.
So I guess quite a bit has happened, but I don't know. I'm just tired, and the baby is soooooo low. I am like literally waddling because I can't really raise my legs up to take normal steps. I just kinda swing my legs around and... well waddle.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
31 weeks! (Almost)
Well, we had our first 2 baby showers! They were really fun, and I need to get started on thank you notes! We made a dent in the stuff we are going to need before Aria is here, but we still have so many things that we are going to need. We have already set up everything in the apartment. :) It is weird having our changing table up and having so many little baby clothes. I can't believe it is like 9 weeks or less until she is here. Wow.
I also finally got my Superior card and set up a meeting with a pediatrician. So once we have everything set with the pediatrician, I can send in the hospital preregistration. I am almost done with all the things I need to get done with. Lol. The pediatrician we want to use is actually the same pediatrician some of our friends in the Austin area had when they were kids.
Tomorrow, I will go in for my ultrasound to find out if I have to have a C-section or not. Obviously, I hope that the placenta has moved up, but I don't know what is going to happen because my walk today became painful pretty quickly. So, I'll either be in a really good mood tomorrow, or I'll be a wreck...
Travis is home from his meeting, so I'm going to make him pay attention to me
I also finally got my Superior card and set up a meeting with a pediatrician. So once we have everything set with the pediatrician, I can send in the hospital preregistration. I am almost done with all the things I need to get done with. Lol. The pediatrician we want to use is actually the same pediatrician some of our friends in the Austin area had when they were kids.
Tomorrow, I will go in for my ultrasound to find out if I have to have a C-section or not. Obviously, I hope that the placenta has moved up, but I don't know what is going to happen because my walk today became painful pretty quickly. So, I'll either be in a really good mood tomorrow, or I'll be a wreck...
Travis is home from his meeting, so I'm going to make him pay attention to me
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Just Dance and Baby Showers
HAHA! So I just played Just Dance 2 on the wii for 30 minutes, and I am BEAT. It is kind of pathetic. I don't know when my fitness went down the drain... I think it was somewhere between 140 and 150. Oh well! I used to sweat from doing just dance, but now, I can't even do the hardest dances. Then again... jumping up and down probably isn't the best idea.
This weekend we have the baby shower with Travis's family and then the baby shower with Travis's mom's church. I am so excited! It might be a little weird just because I don't really go out very much anymore and having that much attention on my belly is going to be strange, but it will definitely be fun and entertaining. I am also excited to start setting up Aria's room! I can't wait to see all of her little things, particularly the bassinet. Bah... HOW IS IT STILL OCTOBER?? It should be at least November right now.
Another weird piece of info, I am so motivated to diet, workout, and lose weight. Regrettably, I shouldn't be dieting, can't exercise very well, and should not be losing weight. Hopefully I will continue feeling this way when Aria is born, but somehow I doubt it. I have all of this time now to workout, but I think once Aria comes, I am going to be scrambling to get everything done. Maybe she will want to come down to the exercise room with me and watch me run/walk... haha yeah right.
This weekend we have the baby shower with Travis's family and then the baby shower with Travis's mom's church. I am so excited! It might be a little weird just because I don't really go out very much anymore and having that much attention on my belly is going to be strange, but it will definitely be fun and entertaining. I am also excited to start setting up Aria's room! I can't wait to see all of her little things, particularly the bassinet. Bah... HOW IS IT STILL OCTOBER?? It should be at least November right now.
Another weird piece of info, I am so motivated to diet, workout, and lose weight. Regrettably, I shouldn't be dieting, can't exercise very well, and should not be losing weight. Hopefully I will continue feeling this way when Aria is born, but somehow I doubt it. I have all of this time now to workout, but I think once Aria comes, I am going to be scrambling to get everything done. Maybe she will want to come down to the exercise room with me and watch me run/walk... haha yeah right.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
29 Weeks and Doctor's Visit
Today is 29 weeks! Only 11 weeks left!! I still am waiting on my insurance card to come in so that I can pick a pediatrician and send in my hospital preregistration, but I think everything should be done by like 33 weeks which is plenty of time. I am starting to feel a lot more relaxed about everything. I am feeling the typical pregnancy feelings that people experience in their third trimester. I'm really anxious, and it swings back and forth between anxious excited and anxious nervous. I think that in my head I know everything will work out. I am just nervous for the process.
My doctor's visit went surprisingly well. I went in today and drank this sugary drink that tasted like fanta but with 3 extra tablespoons of sugar. It wasn't nasty, but it definitely wasn't yummy. Then, I was weighed (which I only gained a pound and a half, EXACTLY what I was supposed to have gained!) and taken to the doctor's room. The nurse took my blood pressure, and it was 140/80 which is pretty high, especially for me. I told her that I was nervous about getting my blood drawn, and the nurse was like how about you just hang out in the doctor's room instead of going down to the lab so you can lay down. After that, she measured again, and my blood pressure was back to normal.
The doctor said that next visit we will find out if the placenta has moved up. She thinks that it might have although she sounded like she was being more positive than telling me a professional opinion. I really hope it has moved up though. I don't want a C-section. I really don't want a C-section. Anyway, I guess that I will know in 2 weeks.
The lab tech who came in and took my blood was different than the other 2 that I have had. She was really good. And because I got to lay down and had just drank the sugary drink, I did pretty well. Yay! No fainting :)
Well, Travis needs the computer to do homework, so I got to go. :)
My doctor's visit went surprisingly well. I went in today and drank this sugary drink that tasted like fanta but with 3 extra tablespoons of sugar. It wasn't nasty, but it definitely wasn't yummy. Then, I was weighed (which I only gained a pound and a half, EXACTLY what I was supposed to have gained!) and taken to the doctor's room. The nurse took my blood pressure, and it was 140/80 which is pretty high, especially for me. I told her that I was nervous about getting my blood drawn, and the nurse was like how about you just hang out in the doctor's room instead of going down to the lab so you can lay down. After that, she measured again, and my blood pressure was back to normal.
The doctor said that next visit we will find out if the placenta has moved up. She thinks that it might have although she sounded like she was being more positive than telling me a professional opinion. I really hope it has moved up though. I don't want a C-section. I really don't want a C-section. Anyway, I guess that I will know in 2 weeks.
The lab tech who came in and took my blood was different than the other 2 that I have had. She was really good. And because I got to lay down and had just drank the sugary drink, I did pretty well. Yay! No fainting :)
Well, Travis needs the computer to do homework, so I got to go. :)
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
3D ultrasound?
BAH! I really really want one of those 3D ultrasound thingies. Its like $115, so I'm not going to do it. But I really want to see Aria. Tomorrow I am 29 weeks, and I have the diabetes screening. I feel really nervous and anxious. I don't think I have diabetes or anything. Besides the whole placenta problem, I haven't had any swelling, and I think that if I had gestational diabetes, I would have gone into shock by now.
I just really don't like getting my blood drawn. The people at my doctor's office are not very good. The first woman didn't take off the elastic that they put on your arm until after I had already filled 4 containers and passed out, and the second woman decided to be a bitch and wouldn't give me a butterfly need and bruised me. Also, for those of you who didn't hear this story, the first time I got my blood drawn in that office, I passed out. It turns out the first time you go in for a prenatal appointment, they take a lot of blood. Around the second or third container, my limbs started going numb, and then I started sweating, and then my head just fell back. I guess I passed out there. I can't really tell you for sure. In memory, it all feels like a big blur. I just remember her telling Travis to go get a nurse and thinking that I was going to die or throw up on her butterfly scrubs. OH and she was still taking my blood. She finally finished and put me in a wheelchair and took me to a room where I could lie down. What really helped was the orange juice they gave me. For some reason, when I pass out, I keep phasing in and out of consciousness until someone gives me sugar. I think it must do something to my blood pressure because after I was more stable, they took my blood pressure, and it was 90/60.
And that is why I do not want to go tomorrow.
Time to go pick Travis up from his test.
I just really don't like getting my blood drawn. The people at my doctor's office are not very good. The first woman didn't take off the elastic that they put on your arm until after I had already filled 4 containers and passed out, and the second woman decided to be a bitch and wouldn't give me a butterfly need and bruised me. Also, for those of you who didn't hear this story, the first time I got my blood drawn in that office, I passed out. It turns out the first time you go in for a prenatal appointment, they take a lot of blood. Around the second or third container, my limbs started going numb, and then I started sweating, and then my head just fell back. I guess I passed out there. I can't really tell you for sure. In memory, it all feels like a big blur. I just remember her telling Travis to go get a nurse and thinking that I was going to die or throw up on her butterfly scrubs. OH and she was still taking my blood. She finally finished and put me in a wheelchair and took me to a room where I could lie down. What really helped was the orange juice they gave me. For some reason, when I pass out, I keep phasing in and out of consciousness until someone gives me sugar. I think it must do something to my blood pressure because after I was more stable, they took my blood pressure, and it was 90/60.
And that is why I do not want to go tomorrow.
Time to go pick Travis up from his test.
Monday, October 3, 2011
1:40 AM
[Thank you pregnancy:
As if I didn't have enough trouble sleeping by:
1. Having to sleep on my right side
2. Being heavier so having pressure/pain in strange places
3. Not being able to calm my brain down
4. Having a little baby kick at me all night
5. Needing to pee every hour and a half
You decide to add one more thing to the mix. Acid reflux. Let me tell you a little something about acid reflux... that burning feeling you get in your throat when you hurl? Its like that, only double, and it doesn't go away after a minute.
According to the internet, I had it coming because I drank tea. I thought tea was supposed to be relaxing. Apparently not so much. I guess the enchiladas and jambalaya that I had planned for this week probably isn't a good idea...
As if I didn't have enough trouble sleeping by:
1. Having to sleep on my right side
2. Being heavier so having pressure/pain in strange places
3. Not being able to calm my brain down
4. Having a little baby kick at me all night
5. Needing to pee every hour and a half
You decide to add one more thing to the mix. Acid reflux. Let me tell you a little something about acid reflux... that burning feeling you get in your throat when you hurl? Its like that, only double, and it doesn't go away after a minute.
According to the internet, I had it coming because I drank tea. I thought tea was supposed to be relaxing. Apparently not so much. I guess the enchiladas and jambalaya that I had planned for this week probably isn't a good idea...
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Oh wow. Let me tell you. I think I could eat EVERYTHING on pinterest. In case I wasn't gaining enough weight, which I am, I get on the food section of pinterest everyday and just gawk at all the yummy and delicious recipes. Thankfully, I don't have flour right now, and most of the pin have a random ingredient that I don't keep in the house, SO I don't end up cooking them. Instead, I plan for Travis's birthday. I have decided that he is having a super smash bros. themed birthday party if I can actually get up off my butt and make it happen. It will consist of:
1. Super smash and mario kart playing
2. A kirby pinata
3. Everyone dressing up as a super smash character (I think I will be Kirby... you know because I am already shaped like the booger anyways)
4. cupcakes with little super smash characters on them (made from a marshmallow fondant recipe I found on pinterest)
Hm. I think that is it so far. Idk where we will go to dinner.... or if we will do a group dinner. That will kind of be up to Travis. But I am excited!
This coming weekend is OU weekend. Regrettably, Travis and I are not going because after Huntsville, I need a weekend off. I don't do well sleeping in different places. I just feel uncomfortable. Plus riding in the car sucks, and I do not welcome another 3 hour drive. Too bad, if Aria wasn't in my tummy, I would be there, partying it up like everybody else.
I am still in Huntsville as of right now. Maranda is sleeping, and I am sitting around on the computer with her grandparents. Might I say, I do not know how people can be on a computer all day!! I am jealous. I would be a lot less bored all the time if the computer could give me that type of stimulation, but I just get bored. I do my blog, check facebook, go through the food section of pinterest, and then I am done. There is nothing left to do. I guess a lot of people play computer games, but to be honest, I am just not a gaming person. For a brief week my freshman year, I was obsessed with pet society. But if something manages to get my attention, I can't do it all day every day. Lol except for my sporadic food obsessions and Travis, I think I might have one of the least addictive personalities of all time.
Yay! Maranda's up.
g2g~
1. Super smash and mario kart playing
2. A kirby pinata
3. Everyone dressing up as a super smash character (I think I will be Kirby... you know because I am already shaped like the booger anyways)
4. cupcakes with little super smash characters on them (made from a marshmallow fondant recipe I found on pinterest)
Hm. I think that is it so far. Idk where we will go to dinner.... or if we will do a group dinner. That will kind of be up to Travis. But I am excited!
This coming weekend is OU weekend. Regrettably, Travis and I are not going because after Huntsville, I need a weekend off. I don't do well sleeping in different places. I just feel uncomfortable. Plus riding in the car sucks, and I do not welcome another 3 hour drive. Too bad, if Aria wasn't in my tummy, I would be there, partying it up like everybody else.
I am still in Huntsville as of right now. Maranda is sleeping, and I am sitting around on the computer with her grandparents. Might I say, I do not know how people can be on a computer all day!! I am jealous. I would be a lot less bored all the time if the computer could give me that type of stimulation, but I just get bored. I do my blog, check facebook, go through the food section of pinterest, and then I am done. There is nothing left to do. I guess a lot of people play computer games, but to be honest, I am just not a gaming person. For a brief week my freshman year, I was obsessed with pet society. But if something manages to get my attention, I can't do it all day every day. Lol except for my sporadic food obsessions and Travis, I think I might have one of the least addictive personalities of all time.
Yay! Maranda's up.
g2g~
Friday, September 30, 2011
28 Weeks
28 weeks! 12 left!! I am ready for this to be over. I am enjoying my pretty hair, but trust me being pregnant is not quite as awesome as it seems. I originally thought that it would be 9 months of relaxing and eating whatever I wanted, but that is definitely not the case. I can't have sushi, alcohol, caffeine, sprouts, lunch meat, prepackaged salads, and hot dogs. I think before I was pregnant, this stuff was like half of my diet. I mean it could be a lot worse. I KNOW it could be a lot worse. I guess I was hoping that I would not feel hungry as much either. I could eat SO much more than I am eating right now, but I try to limit myself to exactly the amount of calories I am supposed to eat based on my basal metabolic rate, activity, and how much the baby needs. I know half of ya'll are probably thinking, why not just eat whatever and lose it afterwards? Well, gaining more than the recommended weight can actually be just as detrimental to your baby as not gaining enough weight, and as of right now, I am on track to gain more weight than I am supposed to. So, yay!
We are going down to Huntsville for the weekend for the boys' (Travis and Cham) race. I have a to do list of stuff that needs to get done before 530, but I am so very lazy. I just don't feel like getting up and doing anything. Thankfully, the list consists of packing, doing our dishes, making Travis take down the water bill, and taking a shower. lol
We went to our last birthing class, and we won a bouncy birthing ball/ fitness ball. Yay! I like to sit and bounce on it as I watch TV. ooo!!!! When Aria is born, I can hold her and sit on the ball and bounce! I think she will like that.... definitely will have to be careful though. We may have to wait till she is 3 months old and has some neck strength before we do that.
Oh, and I miss dance. I have dance dreams all the time. It really sucks because I want to just go to class, but I think it would be too weird. I already feel awkward enough just being out in public. It won't be too long till I get to go to class again though.
We are going down to Huntsville for the weekend for the boys' (Travis and Cham) race. I have a to do list of stuff that needs to get done before 530, but I am so very lazy. I just don't feel like getting up and doing anything. Thankfully, the list consists of packing, doing our dishes, making Travis take down the water bill, and taking a shower. lol
We went to our last birthing class, and we won a bouncy birthing ball/ fitness ball. Yay! I like to sit and bounce on it as I watch TV. ooo!!!! When Aria is born, I can hold her and sit on the ball and bounce! I think she will like that.... definitely will have to be careful though. We may have to wait till she is 3 months old and has some neck strength before we do that.
Oh, and I miss dance. I have dance dreams all the time. It really sucks because I want to just go to class, but I think it would be too weird. I already feel awkward enough just being out in public. It won't be too long till I get to go to class again though.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Medicaid and Bikes
Baah!!! Good news! I finally got a letter from medicaid, and my request was granted!! Aria will have insurance, and I will have secondary insurance!! I am so relieved, and once I get my little insurance card, I can turn in my hospital registration. Also, we have some pediatrician suggests, so we need to go visit them and see who we like.
I fee like I can tell the difference between the 2nd trimester and the 3rd trimester. Just last week I could still wake up at 10, but today, I rolled out of bed at 1130. Also, I am definitely not getting the same quality of sleep that I was getting. I wake up a lot, and I used to only wake up because I needed to pee. Now, I wake up a lot because of pain. Something is always hurting, either my shoulder or my hip, and I have only 2 positions I can lay in (left side or right side). I feel like an old woman.
Travis's bike crap is really starting to piss me off. He has made 3 stains in Aria's room from his stupid bike, and he is constantly leaving her room messy which I have to clean up and leaving piles of dirt in the guest bathroom from scrubbing on his bike parts. Aria's room is turning into Travis's bike room, and that is NOT what the guest bedroom is supposed to be used for. When I agreed to let Travis use Aria's room for his extended bike shit, I thought that it might get cluttered, but he would at least try to keep the room clean. But he doesn't even try. I am so ticked off right now. Of course, to reward him, we are going to a weekend of biking in Huntsville, and Travis and Chris are going to bike on Saturday then race on Sunday. I get to stay at a stranger's house, and I can barely sleep in my own bed, let alone some other location. I just wish he was more considerate. I rush around cleaning up his shit, planning baby showers AROUND his stupid races, and sitting at home waiting for him to come home.
I guess that's all that I am going to say. I am kind of irritated.
I fee like I can tell the difference between the 2nd trimester and the 3rd trimester. Just last week I could still wake up at 10, but today, I rolled out of bed at 1130. Also, I am definitely not getting the same quality of sleep that I was getting. I wake up a lot, and I used to only wake up because I needed to pee. Now, I wake up a lot because of pain. Something is always hurting, either my shoulder or my hip, and I have only 2 positions I can lay in (left side or right side). I feel like an old woman.
Travis's bike crap is really starting to piss me off. He has made 3 stains in Aria's room from his stupid bike, and he is constantly leaving her room messy which I have to clean up and leaving piles of dirt in the guest bathroom from scrubbing on his bike parts. Aria's room is turning into Travis's bike room, and that is NOT what the guest bedroom is supposed to be used for. When I agreed to let Travis use Aria's room for his extended bike shit, I thought that it might get cluttered, but he would at least try to keep the room clean. But he doesn't even try. I am so ticked off right now. Of course, to reward him, we are going to a weekend of biking in Huntsville, and Travis and Chris are going to bike on Saturday then race on Sunday. I get to stay at a stranger's house, and I can barely sleep in my own bed, let alone some other location. I just wish he was more considerate. I rush around cleaning up his shit, planning baby showers AROUND his stupid races, and sitting at home waiting for him to come home.
I guess that's all that I am going to say. I am kind of irritated.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Dilemmas of a Pregnant Woman
I am trying to decide whether or not to take a nap.
PROS:
1. feel rested (or maybe just a little more than usual)
2. pass time till Travis is done with group project
3. no more boredom
CONS:
1. I'll only be awake 12 hours of today
2. I'll feel guilty (I think 1 and 2 kind of go together, but whatever)
3. could have another strange dream
Neither side is super compelling, but there is nothing interesting to do. If I wasn't pregnant, I might frolic outside. If I wasn't pregnant, I probably wouldn't want to take a nap. If I wasn't pregnant, I'd probably be doing homework right now... And then I would want to take a nap because I'd be waking up at 630 every morning to go to an elementary school and student teach, but I wouldn't have time to nap because I'd be working on homework. I should be embracing this laziness because in 3 months I'm not going to get any sleep at all! I should take the nap. Except, I am not tired anymore. Bummer.
PROS:
1. feel rested (or maybe just a little more than usual)
2. pass time till Travis is done with group project
3. no more boredom
CONS:
1. I'll only be awake 12 hours of today
2. I'll feel guilty (I think 1 and 2 kind of go together, but whatever)
3. could have another strange dream
Neither side is super compelling, but there is nothing interesting to do. If I wasn't pregnant, I might frolic outside. If I wasn't pregnant, I probably wouldn't want to take a nap. If I wasn't pregnant, I'd probably be doing homework right now... And then I would want to take a nap because I'd be waking up at 630 every morning to go to an elementary school and student teach, but I wouldn't have time to nap because I'd be working on homework. I should be embracing this laziness because in 3 months I'm not going to get any sleep at all! I should take the nap. Except, I am not tired anymore. Bummer.
Friday, September 23, 2011
Dreams
So, one of the symptoms of pregnancy is having crazy dreams, and let me tell you.. I am having some REALLY crazy dreams. I do have a couple crazy nightmares and some dreams where I am living through the next day, but a large portion of my dreams have to do with Aria. It seems like my dreams have had 3 main themes:
1. Since June, I have had the residual dream of Aria being born, and I don't remember anything about the birth. I also have amnesia, and Aria is like a year old. So, I am upset that I missed all of the good parts when Aria is a cute little baby. Its pretty obvious what this dream means. I am afraid that time will fly by too quickly when she is young, and I won't appreciate it.
2. I started having another type of dream around August once I felt like she was real. I would be somewhere, and I couldn't get to her. OR one dream in particular, I was in a grocery store, and she was in a grocery bag. Then, an armed robbery happened, and the robber wanted by bag. Welp, yet again, pretty obvious that I have a fear of someone taking her away from me. This dream has pretty much stopped. I think it was a temporary fear that I had because I started to feel her kick in August, so I didn't want anything to happen to her once I started to connect to her.
3. I think this type of dream started this month, and it is really annoying because I always wake up feeling horrible. In this type of dream, I either have stuff to do, or I forget that she is here. So, she doesn't get the care that she needs. Thankfully, she is always okay, but I will come in, and she will be really hungry or have pooped everywhere because I haven't checked on her for 8 hours. OH! And in the dream I had last night, Travis and I were both in school, and we had triplets. So, I'm guessing I'm afraid I am going to suck at taking care of a baby which is true.
Yeah, so my dreams are basically mirroring all of my fears about Aria. It is kind of funny how transparent my dreams are. At least I don't have to work hard to understand them.
Oh and yeah, there are probably a billion typos in my posts because I really don't feel like proof reading everything. I do this as a way to have something to do when Travis is gone.
1. Since June, I have had the residual dream of Aria being born, and I don't remember anything about the birth. I also have amnesia, and Aria is like a year old. So, I am upset that I missed all of the good parts when Aria is a cute little baby. Its pretty obvious what this dream means. I am afraid that time will fly by too quickly when she is young, and I won't appreciate it.
2. I started having another type of dream around August once I felt like she was real. I would be somewhere, and I couldn't get to her. OR one dream in particular, I was in a grocery store, and she was in a grocery bag. Then, an armed robbery happened, and the robber wanted by bag. Welp, yet again, pretty obvious that I have a fear of someone taking her away from me. This dream has pretty much stopped. I think it was a temporary fear that I had because I started to feel her kick in August, so I didn't want anything to happen to her once I started to connect to her.
3. I think this type of dream started this month, and it is really annoying because I always wake up feeling horrible. In this type of dream, I either have stuff to do, or I forget that she is here. So, she doesn't get the care that she needs. Thankfully, she is always okay, but I will come in, and she will be really hungry or have pooped everywhere because I haven't checked on her for 8 hours. OH! And in the dream I had last night, Travis and I were both in school, and we had triplets. So, I'm guessing I'm afraid I am going to suck at taking care of a baby which is true.
Yeah, so my dreams are basically mirroring all of my fears about Aria. It is kind of funny how transparent my dreams are. At least I don't have to work hard to understand them.
Oh and yeah, there are probably a billion typos in my posts because I really don't feel like proof reading everything. I do this as a way to have something to do when Travis is gone.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
27 Weeks!
We did it!!! We are finally in the 3rd trimester!!! I wasn't sure if we were going to make it to Thursday, but we did! We had a lot of baby stuff to do this week:
1. Target Registry: which is DONE! Woot! We went at 7 p.m. after Travis had been at the engineering expo all day. Poor Travis, I am glad he got to bike this morning because this week has been rough on him.
2. Doctor Visit: I will have to do the diabetes test (you drink a nasty, orange, sugary drink, and they draw your blood). I hope I don't pass out, but I have 2 weeks till I have to worry about that! Other than that, Aria is doing good. I don't know if the placenta has moved up yet, but I am going to guess no because I am in more pain than I was in before. Oh.... and I weight a LOT. Like probably as much as some guys in singers. Its scary and embarrassing. Thankfully, I haven't caught Travis yet, but I think I might by my 9th month.
3. Child birth class: We had our 2nd class, and it went well. I don't think I really learned anything new. Well, except that I am starting to reconsider an epidural. A friend from high school theater mentioned that epidurals can increase your risk of needing a C-section, but that isn't what is scaring me the most about epidurals. I know someone who had an allergic reaction to an epidural, and it could have killed her. On one episode of a baby's story, a woman had swelling in the brain from her epidural. And a pretty common side effect of an epidural is having decreased blood pressure which is alarming to me because that is why I faint when I give blood; my blood pressure drops. I don't know. There is just a lot to think about. AND my hospital only offers full strength epidurals (not the walking ones). There is one other option besides getting an epidural. I could get IV drugs, but they have a lot of side effects on the baby. Babies tend to come out sleepy and occasionally don't breath. Also, the sleepy baby (from all of the drugs) doesn't want to breastfeed right away, so you don't get a pattern established early on. The IV tranquilizers do this to the baby because they are put into your blood stream, so the baby actually gets some of the medication. The epidural is a combo of drugs that are similar to the IV, but an epidural is inserted into the epidural space in your spine and just bathes the nerves with medicine rather than getting it into your blood stream. So, that's that issue.
4. Finally, we got to take a tour of the hospital! This was my favorite part of this week by far. I think I almost started crying while I was there because it was just so overwhelming. First of all, we walk in, and our instructor started to show us what one of the rooms looks like when we see a scale being rolled into a room across the hall. Then, we walk by and hear a baby start crying. A baby was born like on the other side of the door while we were there!!! It was soooo crazy. We looked at the rooms that we would be having the baby in, and it was just surreal to think that we would be back there in 3 months to have Aria. On a side note, our hospital is really into letting the baby and mom meet each other, spend as much time as possible together, and helping the mom establish feeding patterns before the mom and baby leave the hospital. So, once the baby is born, it is with you until you leave except for a brief couple of minutes in the nursery while mom is moving to the postpartum area of the hospital (assuming the baby doesn't have any medical complications). Anyway, then we went down to the nursery, and we got to see a new dad with his newborn. It was so sweet. The guy couldn't stop smiling, and the baby couldn't stop crying. You could tell the baby wanted to be back with it's mommy. Then we went by the NICU ( baby ICU). There were a few babies getting oxygen, and one was under a heating lamp for jaundice, but they looked pretty healthy besides that. It was strange to see all of the little newborns. They were bigger than I expected but had smaller heads than I thought babies had. I am going to go with that being a good thing for obvious reasons... Also, all of the babies looked identical! So, we ended up in the postpartum rooms after that, and they were nice. Then our tour ended.
I am going to guess that all of this stuff is probably only interesting to me but whatever! Next week is our last class, and then the week after is our diabetes doctors appointment... I don't know. I want time to go by faster, but everything to still get done. I feel like I have a lot of paperwork hanging over my head that I either a) am to lazy to tackle or b) can't because people haven't gotten back to me *COUGH COUGH medicaid*. I kind of feel constantly stressed because I have so many loose ends that need to be tied up in 3 months, and I can't live with so much uncertainty, especially when it is important stuff.
For everyone who hasn't seen me pregnant yet, I am huge. Okay, I look like I gained 5 pounds and then stuffed a basketball under my shirt, but it is kind of ridiculous. In my first trimester, I kind of judged people who gained more than they were supposed to because I was only gaining a pound a month. But now I understand, sympathize, and will probably be one of those women. Wouldn't it be nice if you could walk out of the hospital your pre-pregnancy weight? I am going to educate ya'll really quick on why this is not possible. I think that most people don't get that there is a lot more than just an 8 pound baby inside you. There is also the 2 pound placenta, the 2 pounds amniotic fluid, and our blood volume increases by 50% (4 pounds). So, you loose about 15 pounds right after birth, BUT you keep some of the extra blood volume for feeding. Then there is the obvious fat storage in our boobies (for feeding) and other places that we gain fat so we have the energy to last the 18 hour process of child birth (9 pounds) plus the fluid in that tissue and milk produced (4 pounds). And our uterus increases in weight (2 pounds). If you add all of that up, that's 31 pounds. They say you should gain 27 because some of that fat storage you have on from before you are preggers.
So I am going to stop here or else I will rant about a bunch of random stuff. BUT on the bright side, to any girls who are reading, you have something to refer to now when you get pregnant, and you have a friend who has been there and done that! Guys... meh, if any are still reading after that rant, I applaud you.
1. Target Registry: which is DONE! Woot! We went at 7 p.m. after Travis had been at the engineering expo all day. Poor Travis, I am glad he got to bike this morning because this week has been rough on him.
2. Doctor Visit: I will have to do the diabetes test (you drink a nasty, orange, sugary drink, and they draw your blood). I hope I don't pass out, but I have 2 weeks till I have to worry about that! Other than that, Aria is doing good. I don't know if the placenta has moved up yet, but I am going to guess no because I am in more pain than I was in before. Oh.... and I weight a LOT. Like probably as much as some guys in singers. Its scary and embarrassing. Thankfully, I haven't caught Travis yet, but I think I might by my 9th month.
3. Child birth class: We had our 2nd class, and it went well. I don't think I really learned anything new. Well, except that I am starting to reconsider an epidural. A friend from high school theater mentioned that epidurals can increase your risk of needing a C-section, but that isn't what is scaring me the most about epidurals. I know someone who had an allergic reaction to an epidural, and it could have killed her. On one episode of a baby's story, a woman had swelling in the brain from her epidural. And a pretty common side effect of an epidural is having decreased blood pressure which is alarming to me because that is why I faint when I give blood; my blood pressure drops. I don't know. There is just a lot to think about. AND my hospital only offers full strength epidurals (not the walking ones). There is one other option besides getting an epidural. I could get IV drugs, but they have a lot of side effects on the baby. Babies tend to come out sleepy and occasionally don't breath. Also, the sleepy baby (from all of the drugs) doesn't want to breastfeed right away, so you don't get a pattern established early on. The IV tranquilizers do this to the baby because they are put into your blood stream, so the baby actually gets some of the medication. The epidural is a combo of drugs that are similar to the IV, but an epidural is inserted into the epidural space in your spine and just bathes the nerves with medicine rather than getting it into your blood stream. So, that's that issue.
4. Finally, we got to take a tour of the hospital! This was my favorite part of this week by far. I think I almost started crying while I was there because it was just so overwhelming. First of all, we walk in, and our instructor started to show us what one of the rooms looks like when we see a scale being rolled into a room across the hall. Then, we walk by and hear a baby start crying. A baby was born like on the other side of the door while we were there!!! It was soooo crazy. We looked at the rooms that we would be having the baby in, and it was just surreal to think that we would be back there in 3 months to have Aria. On a side note, our hospital is really into letting the baby and mom meet each other, spend as much time as possible together, and helping the mom establish feeding patterns before the mom and baby leave the hospital. So, once the baby is born, it is with you until you leave except for a brief couple of minutes in the nursery while mom is moving to the postpartum area of the hospital (assuming the baby doesn't have any medical complications). Anyway, then we went down to the nursery, and we got to see a new dad with his newborn. It was so sweet. The guy couldn't stop smiling, and the baby couldn't stop crying. You could tell the baby wanted to be back with it's mommy. Then we went by the NICU ( baby ICU). There were a few babies getting oxygen, and one was under a heating lamp for jaundice, but they looked pretty healthy besides that. It was strange to see all of the little newborns. They were bigger than I expected but had smaller heads than I thought babies had. I am going to go with that being a good thing for obvious reasons... Also, all of the babies looked identical! So, we ended up in the postpartum rooms after that, and they were nice. Then our tour ended.
I am going to guess that all of this stuff is probably only interesting to me but whatever! Next week is our last class, and then the week after is our diabetes doctors appointment... I don't know. I want time to go by faster, but everything to still get done. I feel like I have a lot of paperwork hanging over my head that I either a) am to lazy to tackle or b) can't because people haven't gotten back to me *COUGH COUGH medicaid*. I kind of feel constantly stressed because I have so many loose ends that need to be tied up in 3 months, and I can't live with so much uncertainty, especially when it is important stuff.
For everyone who hasn't seen me pregnant yet, I am huge. Okay, I look like I gained 5 pounds and then stuffed a basketball under my shirt, but it is kind of ridiculous. In my first trimester, I kind of judged people who gained more than they were supposed to because I was only gaining a pound a month. But now I understand, sympathize, and will probably be one of those women. Wouldn't it be nice if you could walk out of the hospital your pre-pregnancy weight? I am going to educate ya'll really quick on why this is not possible. I think that most people don't get that there is a lot more than just an 8 pound baby inside you. There is also the 2 pound placenta, the 2 pounds amniotic fluid, and our blood volume increases by 50% (4 pounds). So, you loose about 15 pounds right after birth, BUT you keep some of the extra blood volume for feeding. Then there is the obvious fat storage in our boobies (for feeding) and other places that we gain fat so we have the energy to last the 18 hour process of child birth (9 pounds) plus the fluid in that tissue and milk produced (4 pounds). And our uterus increases in weight (2 pounds). If you add all of that up, that's 31 pounds. They say you should gain 27 because some of that fat storage you have on from before you are preggers.
So I am going to stop here or else I will rant about a bunch of random stuff. BUT on the bright side, to any girls who are reading, you have something to refer to now when you get pregnant, and you have a friend who has been there and done that! Guys... meh, if any are still reading after that rant, I applaud you.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
26 Weeks
Aria has been cooking for 26 weeks! She is 14 inches long and weights 1 and 2/3 pounds, AND if she was to be born, she would have a 72% chance of surviving. We have a doctors appointment on Tuesday, but I don't think it is going to be an interesting appointment. It will probably just be checking the heartbeat, taking my weight, and measuring my tummy's length. I'm not looking forward to the diabetes test. They make you drink this orange flavored syrup drink and then call you back in an hour to draw your blood. Yum.
We went to Victoria this weekend to try to work on the registry, and let me tell you the world is full of idiots. Basically, the Walmart in Victoria doesn't do registries. I have no idea why because every other Walmart does them, but apparently this particular Walmart was different. And nowhere has bassinets (those little beds that babies use before cribs when they are 0-3 months old). I would either have to register for something that isn't in store, or we would need to register at babies r us which I am against because all of the prices are marked up by at least 15%. BUT on a happy note, I think I have a pretty good list of what we will need. Also, I think we are going to register at Target now instead of Walmart because the Target stores were a lot more organized, had a lot better selection and quality, and are easier to set up a registry for.
While we were down in Victoria, we also learned that the women at Travis's mom's church want to throw me a baby shower as well which is really sweet! It would be just a group of women from the church, but it would be fun. Some people don't even get one shower, and it looks like we might have 3! Granted, they will all be smaller subsets of people, but it is just nice to feel loved and nice to know that people are going to care about Aria. :)
I still haven't heard from medicaid, so I still can't send in my hospital registration form. Yay...
Haha, last night I had a really funny dream that Aria was born now, but she didn't have any problems. She came home with us, but I kept on going and hanging out with people and doing my normal stuff. Me and Travis would only come home every 8 hours, and she would be really hungry. But she got used to it and then didn't need me. I have NO idea what this dream was trying to tell me, but I woke up feeling really horrible because I left my child alone for 8 hours in a dream. Yeah, I know it was a dream, but you try telling a pregnant lady to not be emotional over something. Logic and emotion are two totally different things.
Yeah, so that's all I got. I will probably update after the doctors appointment on Tuesday. Adios
We went to Victoria this weekend to try to work on the registry, and let me tell you the world is full of idiots. Basically, the Walmart in Victoria doesn't do registries. I have no idea why because every other Walmart does them, but apparently this particular Walmart was different. And nowhere has bassinets (those little beds that babies use before cribs when they are 0-3 months old). I would either have to register for something that isn't in store, or we would need to register at babies r us which I am against because all of the prices are marked up by at least 15%. BUT on a happy note, I think I have a pretty good list of what we will need. Also, I think we are going to register at Target now instead of Walmart because the Target stores were a lot more organized, had a lot better selection and quality, and are easier to set up a registry for.
While we were down in Victoria, we also learned that the women at Travis's mom's church want to throw me a baby shower as well which is really sweet! It would be just a group of women from the church, but it would be fun. Some people don't even get one shower, and it looks like we might have 3! Granted, they will all be smaller subsets of people, but it is just nice to feel loved and nice to know that people are going to care about Aria. :)
I still haven't heard from medicaid, so I still can't send in my hospital registration form. Yay...
Haha, last night I had a really funny dream that Aria was born now, but she didn't have any problems. She came home with us, but I kept on going and hanging out with people and doing my normal stuff. Me and Travis would only come home every 8 hours, and she would be really hungry. But she got used to it and then didn't need me. I have NO idea what this dream was trying to tell me, but I woke up feeling really horrible because I left my child alone for 8 hours in a dream. Yeah, I know it was a dream, but you try telling a pregnant lady to not be emotional over something. Logic and emotion are two totally different things.
Yeah, so that's all I got. I will probably update after the doctors appointment on Tuesday. Adios
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Childbirth Class
Well, Travis and I just got back from our first child birthing class. And it was definitely interesting!! We looked like we were by far the youngest people there and the only ones that were not employed which sucked. I felt like a child in a room full of grown ups, but people were nice enough. In fact, one of the women there is a professor at UT, and I'm pretty sure that I have seen her around the psychology building before.... OOOO!!! And because we were the youngest, Travis got to demo stuff on a birthing ball for the teacher (least awkward option because asking a 35 year old man to do it would be weird). Consequently, for Travis's cooperation, the teacher gave us one of those little rubbing back massager things.
I think we learned a few things in the class. We worked on relaxation and breathing, and Travis was super helpful. I realized that I don't really ask Travis ever to massage me or rock me or whatever, and apparently, you should. I am glad that I haven't until this point because I depend on him enough for everything else, but this class kind of taught him what type of stuff would help me the best when I am in pain which is nice. Also, I learned more about my child birth options that our hospital offers, the anatomy inside a woman when she is pregnant, and the gymnastics the baby goes through to get out of you. Some of the child birth options seemed kind of weird to me. I didn't think that anyone would want to watch the baby come out of them.... apparently that's kind of common *shivers*. Also, you can bring one of those big bouncy balls with you (also known as a birthing ball) and roll around on it or hang out in the shower with it. That option actually kinda sounds fun! But epidural/drugs > bouncy ball
Oh bahahaha. And Travis had to watch a birth video. I think it might have scarred him for life. The whole class he was so giggly and kept trying to talk to me when the teacher was talking. I know it was because he felt really awkward and wasn't super comfortable. It was just really funny.
That's all I have for now, but I might update tomorrow or the next day. :)
Cara
I think we learned a few things in the class. We worked on relaxation and breathing, and Travis was super helpful. I realized that I don't really ask Travis ever to massage me or rock me or whatever, and apparently, you should. I am glad that I haven't until this point because I depend on him enough for everything else, but this class kind of taught him what type of stuff would help me the best when I am in pain which is nice. Also, I learned more about my child birth options that our hospital offers, the anatomy inside a woman when she is pregnant, and the gymnastics the baby goes through to get out of you. Some of the child birth options seemed kind of weird to me. I didn't think that anyone would want to watch the baby come out of them.... apparently that's kind of common *shivers*. Also, you can bring one of those big bouncy balls with you (also known as a birthing ball) and roll around on it or hang out in the shower with it. That option actually kinda sounds fun! But epidural/drugs > bouncy ball
Oh bahahaha. And Travis had to watch a birth video. I think it might have scarred him for life. The whole class he was so giggly and kept trying to talk to me when the teacher was talking. I know it was because he felt really awkward and wasn't super comfortable. It was just really funny.
That's all I have for now, but I might update tomorrow or the next day. :)
Cara
Monday, September 12, 2011
25 Weeks
Hi everybody,
I have never really been much of a blogger. I usually start one, write in it for 2 days, and then forget that I even have one. BUT I thought that it might be nice to start writing about Aria and all the craziness going on in our lives because:
1. facebook statuses are not long enough
2. people might have helpful suggestions
3. organizing my thoughts might help calm me down
So, to start, Travis and I are having a baby girl! Her name is Aria Kay McGarrah, and I am 25 weeks pregnant. If you pronounce her name like the measurement (area), I will throw up on you. In about a week and a half, I will be in my last trimester, and it is definitely crunch time. Half of me wants to see her, but the other half of me wants more time to get everything done. Today, we set a date for our first baby shower in Victoria. It will be primarily Travis's family and maybe some high school friends, but I guess setting a date that is only a month away freaked me out a little bit. I should probably explain why all of this is making me anxious:
1. I have never been around babies, so going through and trying to learn what all babies need is scary. Babies need so much stuff. There is the obvious stuff like diapers and a crib, but then there is the random stuff like bumpers, changing pail liners, and the 50 million tools for storing breastmilk.
2. We are having some trouble with health insurance. Usually even if a child won't be covered permanently by your insurance, they will be covered for the first 30 days, but my insurance won't even do that. And you can't pull out a policy for a child until the child is a month old. And I can't take out a new policy because I'm pregnant and no one will insure me. And Travis's insurance won't cover her either. So, I am left with medicaid coverage for her. But we haven't found out if medicaid will insure me/her. It is a mess, and I can't send in my hospital registration until I have her insurance information. So, if I was to go into labor now, I don't even know if the hospital would take me because I haven't registered with them. Which is scary because I don't want to have my baby on the side of the road, or for it to cost a fortune.
3. Finally, Aria has a placenta issue. The placenta is really low and covering my cervix, so if I was to go into labor, she would be stuck and couldn't get out. If the placenta doesn't move up naturally, then I will have to get a C-section which would not be ideal. I'm not being picky about the way I give birth; it is just that the United States has one of the highest maternal death rates in the developed countries because of our overuse of C-sections. Let's face it... any time you have surgery there is a risk. Anyway, the placenta issue is causing a lot of lower abdominal pain. I can't sit up for long periods of time or even stand. I feel best when I am reclined or lying down.
So, I guess those are the main problems. I am just not prepared, and scrambling at the last minute is making me feel really anxious because I'm not doing all of this just for me. Its for her too. Thank God I took a developmental psychology class in college. Putting my college degree to good use... Despite the bad parts, there are some really cute things going on too:
1. She kicks a lot. It is really cute too because she doesn't like to kick when people put their hands on my tummy. She only like to kick for me and Travis because she likes her mommy the best. I can tell when its her tiny fist pushing or her feet kicking. I think that mommies can feel their babies kick and play inside them so that women will like their babies more when they are born. Feeling her made her seem real and made me love her.
2. We are starting our child birth class on Wednesday night. I hope that this eases some of my anxiety about labor. I think it will.
3. October is going to be so FUN! Bike races for Travis, maybe OU weekend, 2 baby shows, Halloween, and Travis's birthday! I will have people to see and fun preparation to do like make food and crafts!! The week will be slightly dull, like it always it, but weekends will be good! I get to see lots of people again!
I am going to try to update the blog at least once a week. Maybe at some point I will put up all of my ultrasound pictures. Or the video! I can already tell that Aria is going to be a good eater because the past 2 times we have had an ultrasound she is randomly chewing. You can see it in her video too. It is hilarious! I think that this is probably a long enough post, and a good enough synopsis of what has been going on over the past couple months.
<3 Cara
I have never really been much of a blogger. I usually start one, write in it for 2 days, and then forget that I even have one. BUT I thought that it might be nice to start writing about Aria and all the craziness going on in our lives because:
1. facebook statuses are not long enough
2. people might have helpful suggestions
3. organizing my thoughts might help calm me down
So, to start, Travis and I are having a baby girl! Her name is Aria Kay McGarrah, and I am 25 weeks pregnant. If you pronounce her name like the measurement (area), I will throw up on you. In about a week and a half, I will be in my last trimester, and it is definitely crunch time. Half of me wants to see her, but the other half of me wants more time to get everything done. Today, we set a date for our first baby shower in Victoria. It will be primarily Travis's family and maybe some high school friends, but I guess setting a date that is only a month away freaked me out a little bit. I should probably explain why all of this is making me anxious:
1. I have never been around babies, so going through and trying to learn what all babies need is scary. Babies need so much stuff. There is the obvious stuff like diapers and a crib, but then there is the random stuff like bumpers, changing pail liners, and the 50 million tools for storing breastmilk.
2. We are having some trouble with health insurance. Usually even if a child won't be covered permanently by your insurance, they will be covered for the first 30 days, but my insurance won't even do that. And you can't pull out a policy for a child until the child is a month old. And I can't take out a new policy because I'm pregnant and no one will insure me. And Travis's insurance won't cover her either. So, I am left with medicaid coverage for her. But we haven't found out if medicaid will insure me/her. It is a mess, and I can't send in my hospital registration until I have her insurance information. So, if I was to go into labor now, I don't even know if the hospital would take me because I haven't registered with them. Which is scary because I don't want to have my baby on the side of the road, or for it to cost a fortune.
3. Finally, Aria has a placenta issue. The placenta is really low and covering my cervix, so if I was to go into labor, she would be stuck and couldn't get out. If the placenta doesn't move up naturally, then I will have to get a C-section which would not be ideal. I'm not being picky about the way I give birth; it is just that the United States has one of the highest maternal death rates in the developed countries because of our overuse of C-sections. Let's face it... any time you have surgery there is a risk. Anyway, the placenta issue is causing a lot of lower abdominal pain. I can't sit up for long periods of time or even stand. I feel best when I am reclined or lying down.
So, I guess those are the main problems. I am just not prepared, and scrambling at the last minute is making me feel really anxious because I'm not doing all of this just for me. Its for her too. Thank God I took a developmental psychology class in college. Putting my college degree to good use... Despite the bad parts, there are some really cute things going on too:
1. She kicks a lot. It is really cute too because she doesn't like to kick when people put their hands on my tummy. She only like to kick for me and Travis because she likes her mommy the best. I can tell when its her tiny fist pushing or her feet kicking. I think that mommies can feel their babies kick and play inside them so that women will like their babies more when they are born. Feeling her made her seem real and made me love her.
2. We are starting our child birth class on Wednesday night. I hope that this eases some of my anxiety about labor. I think it will.
3. October is going to be so FUN! Bike races for Travis, maybe OU weekend, 2 baby shows, Halloween, and Travis's birthday! I will have people to see and fun preparation to do like make food and crafts!! The week will be slightly dull, like it always it, but weekends will be good! I get to see lots of people again!
I am going to try to update the blog at least once a week. Maybe at some point I will put up all of my ultrasound pictures. Or the video! I can already tell that Aria is going to be a good eater because the past 2 times we have had an ultrasound she is randomly chewing. You can see it in her video too. It is hilarious! I think that this is probably a long enough post, and a good enough synopsis of what has been going on over the past couple months.
<3 Cara
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